To Yasmin,
I wasn't a part of your short life as much as I should have been. I spent alot of my childhood with you. I remember looking forward to coming to your house and playing with you. You were so imaginative and creative. You were smart and confident. I always admired that about you. You were 6 months younger than me but it was always like you were the older one. We used to talk on MSN and email eachother and I really wish I kept in contact with you. For some reason, I can't actually remember how we lost contact. I guess it happened gradually through secondary school & before i knew it, 13 years had passed. I thought of you over the years & tried to find your contact details, but to no avail. Deep down inside, I always wanted to reunite with you again. I always wondered what you were upto, how you were. Not only were you my cousin, you were my best friend during my childhood. You had a heart of gold, the type of heart that had this willingness to help others. It was only after your death that I found out about some aspects of your life. You did alot of volunteering, you were studying mental health nursing. I pray that these good deeds of yours aid your Aakirah. I'm so sorry for not being a part of your life. It's a regret I will always have. I wish I was there for you, to laugh with you, to cry with you, to hold you, to spend time with you. We both enjoyed writing. It was only after your death I managed to find you on social media. If I had just tried harder. But it was the will of Allah. On one of your social media pages, I found a piece you wrote back in 2020. I'm glad you never lost your love for writing. You wrote about the hardships you faced but also the blessings in-between that you gained. I'm so proud that you were able to have a positive outlook. You had so much ahead of you baby. So many dreams & goals. When I visited your grave, I couldn't believe it was here that I was seeing you again. When I went to your Janazah, I held back my tears whilst praying for your soul, bc I didn't expect to be reunited with you in this way. At the very least, I'm so grateful I was able to attend your Janazah. I hope you're at peace baby girl. I pray that your grave is filled with His Noor. I love you so much. If I had the chance to see you again, I would have given you a big hug. Maybe in Jannah, we can reunite again by His Mercy. Maybe we didn't reunite in this life again bc maybe that is being saved for eternity in the hereafter. In Jannah, there is no separation. We will laugh about the hardships of this world. We will be eternally happy. Take care, Yasmin. I know this Dunya wasn't very kind to you. When I visit you next, I will spend that little bit longer by your grave. I hope you're able to hear my voice when I visit you. Please have Mercy on her soul, Ya Rabb.
Love Tasnim ❤️
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